the beginning of the end..
There are some memories you just can’t let go of. No matter how hard you try.
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they’re before your eyes
You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye
Forgiving does not erase the bitter past / A healed memory is not a deleted memory / Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember / We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.
Our paths will cross again, I am thinking about you every time I close my eyes, you’re everything. It is still natural that you are by our side. We can only wish that you are happy. We will climb our stairs one by one. We are still waiting for you, imagining our future.
Keep in mind that I love you.
I would just like to say, thank you. Thank you for all the precious memories you give me. It’s a funny thing I do not even remember how I got in this fandom, it’s just as if I have always been here. Everyone always said loving you would be easy but I find it pretty damn hard. You make me smile till my jaw aches, laugh till I lose my breath, and cry until I can’t anymore. I have seen you at your lowest, I have watched you grow faster than you should have, and I have seen you reach heights no one else ever will. People doubted you said you couldn’t make it, but you fought and you fought to make it and you did. You have no idea how proud you have made me, how happy you make me. When you split it hurt so much but I have full confidence that one day you will be reunited.
So for now I will wait until your ready. With open arms and an open heart. I just want you to be happy. Please be happy, for me. You deserve it, no dammit you earned it. I love you! Thank you for making my days a little brighter.
your ever loving fan.
youngand untouchedonce / not yet caressed / by the cold and harsh / reality of the world / in which they were living..
“Regarding love, there is no ‘later.’ If you feel that you should do it, express it now and just love. Don’t do something you’re going to regret.”
- Shim Changmin
Sometimes I feel bitter and jealousy when I see fans supporting their favorite group. Seeing them be able to laugh at what they say or do. Watching them smile in pride every time their oppas perform. I can’t help thinking, “do you even know how lucky you are?” I hate that all I can feel now is nostalgia. I miss those feelings, like when my heart would speed up every time they walked on to stage, smiling till my cheeks hurt every time they laughed, crying every time they sang my favorite song, and just being able to see them together happy…
Yeah I miss that, so much.